Happy Valentine’s Day.
Now is my 20th year of celebrating Valentine’s Day with my family. :) I don’t want to say that I celebrate it alone’ because I know I am not alone. I am filled with the love of my family and friends, especially the indescribable love of Jesus Christ in my life. <3 And I know, with or without a boyfriend, my life is still complete knowing that I have more than enough. But of course, just like every women, I, too, desire to love and be loved by someone special.
Sometimes, I doubt if the existence of my soulmate, is possible. I don’t know really. I am in doubt if I am capable of loving, and if someone will fall in love with me and love me for who I am.
My friends always tell me, that my standards are that too high, that is why I never had the chance of having a boyfriend yet. Yes, that idea made me think. Maybe, they are right, and I am wrong. I don’t want to justify or reason out why I haven’t had any boyfriend yet. But what I believe is maybe, God has a purpose for my situation… for my status…
Probably, God is saving the best for my first and last. Last night, my mom told me, five years from now, you can get married. When she said this, my jaw dropped, really. Hello, marriage already? Hahaha. Funny. That idea never entered yet because I have a lot of dreams for myself, especially for my future.. Oh, I want to get married, but at the right time, when I am already ready, or at least prepared somehow.
I pray to God that someday, in His perfect timing, He will bring him to me. This is one of my greatest dream in life. But right now, I want to get busy becoming the best person God created me to be. Twenty years of still not willing to give my heart away, I discovered a lot about me, my family, friends, and God. This special season of my life, I called it a gift. A gift to celebrate, and not to mourn about.
I will keep hoping. I will keep believing. I will keep desiring. I will keep on trusting. Nothing is impossible with God. He is the King of Kings. He is also a God who wants to be involved in our love stories. He is the Author of Romance, after all.
PS:
Please pray that I will not become jealous when I see lovers being sweet.
Please do pray that God will guard my heart and my other half’s heart (even if i don’t know him yet).
Please do pray that when the time I will meet him, my relationship with God will become more deep.
Please pray that I will become a PROVERBS 31 woman.
Please pray that I will not give up on love.
Please pray for me as I patiently wait on God to bring him to me.
God bless you all! ;)
Just speaking my heart out. ^^
